who am I?

deviantart.com/art/naking soul by arlek-in

who am I?
I ask myself,
searching for clues
have we met?
staring
in the mirror,
no one
looks back.
forgettable,
I must be.
wonder if anyone
knows me?
feeling fear
lacing
through me,
my terror
uncovers
there is no one
here.
If I were lost
in a crowd,
would I be found?
am I merely a
mirage of my own
imagining?
a colorless chimera
on an endless path
to nowhere,
perhaps.
am I even a human
others can see?
or a ghostly
apparition,
bloodless and cold,
never to be.
how did I get here,
wherever here is?
blinding light
encircles me,
lighting my way,
white silence
wraps me
invisible
as far as
eyes can
see.

I wake
with sadness
too painful
to be
these dreams
repeated
I cannot
be free
as I plead to
no one
let me,
please let me,
just let me be me!

© Joan A. Evans 2018 All rights reserved

by education, I’m a clinical psycologist, PhD. by vocation, I’m a writer with the heart of a poet. by avocation, I’m a connoisseur of human folly. cats rule.

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